Compilation of Life
Writing about the stuff I went through personally was a walk in the park, but sitting and talking about what my mother went through, reliving those events and hearing the screams and pleas, was absolutely heart wrenching and I ended up crying through a lot of this blog...
I had repeatedly dated men that were emotionally unavailable. Some that took advantage of me or others that did not appreciate me. I couldn't understand why I was being treated this way. I used to roll out the red carpet and give off my very best, only to be left wondering why they did not stay. At the time I didn't realise that it was because I did not value myself, love myself and that I had little self-worth and I had a shitty family that would reinforce the belief that I wasn't good enough. My wonderful brother used to tell me whenever we fought that "no one can live with you, that is why you are single...
In February 2008 I was robbed at gunpoint in my house. I lived in a security complex and had just gotten home from gym. I entered through the sliding door; the back door was never locked, only the security gate. I sat on my couch and before I knew it, two men came in through the back door. I was taken to the room to find that they had already been in my house whilst I was away. Long story short, they tried to rape me, I told them that I will scream and said...
I'm taking you through my journey that led me to where I am today. I am sharing my experiences with you that pushed me towards healing and self-awareness. Understanding why I didn't love myself and where that came from was a very difficult realisation. As you know now that that manifested into attracting abusive men.… Continue reading Raw: Understanding
The mere thought of this part of my story I am about to share with you, makes me feel extremely vulnerable but grateful at the same time, because I know can talk about it without feeling anger or sadness anymore. My ''Compilation of Life'', has helped me become this Being that I am today. These… Continue reading Raw: Where is my mind?
If you read the blog before this, Raw: Unraveling Me , disemboweling of myself to fulfill my purpose to inspire, motivate and create was quite nerve wrecking but I am glad and relieved that it is done. I gave you an overview of an aspect of my journey that has lead me to this. Lets dig a… Continue reading Raw: Abuse
1 glass or maybe 3 glasses later and a little more, and a thoughtful journey home. I was thinking about this blogging thing that I decided to do, and what I wished to achieve by doing this. I sit here and share what I have learnt with all of you in hope that it will… Continue reading Raw: Unraveling Me
It is already Wednesday, well barely, and here I am writing my first blog for the week. Lesson, it doesn't matter when it happens, as long as it happens. Okay, so here is what I want to share with you. Keep an open mind for those that aren't fans, and for those that are fans,… Continue reading It Flows Through US!
I found myself feeling saddened the other day when I realised that many people do what makes others happy in a search of happiness. It was a big eye opener and lead me to this blog, which I intended to post yesterday, but alas, playing squash, going out to eat as my reward(because I gym… Continue reading The authenticity of self-love.
Love, the international language. Love, a feeling that we are all capable of feeling. Love, it does heal. Love, the only emotion that is real. Love is what drives us, in all aspects of life. When you are driven by anything else you burn out at some point or the other and not want to… Continue reading How deep is your love?